To All Absentee Daughters
by Nancy (Gonnee)
Dear Daughter,
It was good to hear from you again. It has been awhile, and we
worried about you. It is good to hear that you have a job and
can afford to travel. You say that you are moving again, will
you send us your address? You forgot to do that the last time
you moved. When will you be taking possession of your new car?
I hope it is economical to use if you are very far from your work.
What is it exactly that you do?
Have you talked to your brother lately?
He got married, you know. We had a nice wedding and he wanted
to send you an invitation, but we werent sure where to send
it. Besides, I thought you were on the road with that truck driver
again. Uncle Jacob got drunker than a skunk and the boys had to
take him home. He sat in the backseat of the Caddie with the windows
rolled down, and sang Shell be coming Round
the Mountain when she Comes all of the way home. I sure
hope he wasnt referring to the brides mother. Derrick
was the ring bearer. All of the relatives swore he looked just
like your dad. I thought he was mighty handsome.
Aunt Anna died last year . She was
your dads auntie you know. He stayed with her for a while
when he was in high school and never forgot how much he enjoyed
being there. He always talked about the knipfla and strudel she
made on Saturday afternoons. I got her recipe once and tried it,
but he said mine tasted more like his mothers. I dont
know if that was a compliment or not, but I kind of think not.
I still wonder what her magic ingredient was. Old Rocko died last
winter. Dad went up stairs one morning after he got off work and
found him lying at the foot of your bed. It looked like he died
in his sleep, . You know, after you left, he never went near your
room until then. He sure did miss you the last two summers, but
then we all did.
You asked how your boys are. Derrick
is growing so tall, you wouldnt recognize him. He took the
training wheels off of his bike this spring, all by himself. He
was real proud of that. It is to bad you werent here to
see the first time he went around the block without them. Your
dads tools were scattered from one end of the driveway to
the other, and I think there were even a few planted in the end
of the garden by the raspberry bushes. Derrick and Taylor both
just love to play in the dirt there because it is so soft. Do
you remember when you and your sister tied your brother up there
and left him. We would never have figured out where he was if
we hadnt heard Rocko barking and whining. Were you really
playing cowboys and Indians like you said? He said you were just
being mean to him, remember?
Dad finally got around to re-roofing
the garage, but he had to take time off from work to do it. We
really couldnt afford to do that, because the plant has
been cutting back on everyones hours, and well, we have
had more expenses since you left the boys here. Derrick has developed
asthma since you left, and needs nebulizer treatments twice a
day. The medicine for the treatments costs about $200 per month,
and our insurance isnt covering as much since dads
hours were cut back. I may have to get a job at Walmart to cover
the medicine. The doctors say we should remodel their bedroom
and take out the carpet, but there just isnt any paycheck
left at the end of the month. Usually plenty of month left at
the end of the paycheck.
You mentioned that you were worried
about Taylor, that he wasnt learning very fast and might
have to be in special classes. I think he is doing real well.
We taught him to run and we were always picked him up when he
fell, We were always there to kiss the boo boos and wipe the tears
away. We taught him to laugh when the wind tickles his face, and
his laughter is so much fun. It is deep and chuckly like yours.
Sometimes it sounds just like water running in the creek. He has
learned to give butterfly kisses, and tries to give them to the
new puppy whenever he can. Yesterday he tried to kiss the wrong
end of the puppy though. I know you didnt want the boys
to have a puppy, but we found one that reminded dad of the Trixie
dog he had when he was just a boy. He hopes that this dog is just
as loyal to the little boys as Trixie was to him. Derrick named
him Banana. So cute, Hannah, just like when he used to try and
call you by your first name. He is trying to teach the puppy to
roll over and play dead. He says he wants to surprise you when
you come home. He used to ask all of the time when that would
be, but he hasnt asked so much since we got the puppy. I
am hoping that he will forget you promised to be home after you
ran to the store. Its been almost two years now.
Taylor still crawls in bed with us
almost every night. He lays there and whimpers for a while, and
kicks all the covers off, then he settles down and we can all
get some sleep. Both boys came to us every night right after you
left, but Derrick has been staying in his own bed all night for
the last couple months. He thinks he has to be a big boy now that
he is going to start kindergarten. I look and look at him, but
try as I might, I cant see a big boy. Just big blue eyes
rimmed with the longest and darkest eyelashes. They brim over
with tears when Bambi loses his mother, and they sparkle with
laughter whenever he gets your dad with yet another knock-knock
joke. He is still so small, I think you could snap his wrist between
your fingers. He is way down below the bottom of the growth chart,
and the Doctor says that if he didnt know better, hed
think the kid was starved. Ha. Ha. You know your dad and his German
food. The more cream the better, and if three meals are good,
then four must be better. Bad part is dad and I are gaining weight
faster than the boys. They do love his cooking and are so polite
when he makes a special snack. They always used to say, Thank-You
grampa, but lately they have been calling him papa. Once
in awhile I slip up and call him Dad or Paul like I did when you
kids were young. Taylor picked up on that real fast, and called
him Dad at supper last night. You should have seen your fathers
face!
Your boys are doing just fine. They
saw your graduation picture on our dresser the other day. I asked
them if they knew who it was, but they didnt seem to know,
I wonder if they were just trying to fool me.. The Department
of Family Services called Friday, asking if your address had changed,
as they had tried to contact you several times without results.
I gave them the last address we had, but the lady said that they
had already tried that one and all the letters had been returned
to them. It seems they are going to terminate parental rights
as you havent had anything to do with the boys for too long.
Court Date is in a month, on the fourth. We are hoping things
will be cleared up, and the paperwork done shortly after that,
and we can adopt them. Yes, our boys are doing very well thank
you. We hope you are doing as well, and will call again soon.
Love, Mom